'where are we heading to?' weve been walking for the last 15 minutes
'im taking you to the beach' he smiled, swinging our hands and then pointing to the beach infront of us.
'hmm...' stopped walking, let loose our hands and announced, 'lets have a race, who ever gets there last will have to buy....'i scanned the area for something to inspire me, 'ah! ice cream! over there~' i pointed to a small stall near the benches.
'okay~ easy~' clapping his hands he turned to get ready, 'are you ready?' after seeing me nod, he began, 'ready....set.....GO!'
we started sprinting like hell, its been a very long time since i exercised, i only do walking. my heart was pounding like a machine. my breaths were short and fast, the wind brushing through my hair and on my face. my legs felt as though they were too slow for my mind. slowing down, incase i fell on my face i checked to see where gikwang was at. he was slighlty infront of me until he broke out. he was letting me in the beginning, but as soon as he saw me slow down a bit it was too late for him to do the same, so he flew like an angel, and won. resting on the bench, he was panting and leaning forward, but kept his eyes on me. as soon as i saw him reach the bench, i had stopped running. it was only a few steps to get to him, so i took my time catching my breath.
'youre fast' i complimented pursing my lips
'what? you didnt possibly think that you were going to win did you?' he joked, eye smiling, chuckling a bit as he panted still.
i saw a few droplets of sweat sliding down his forehead, and i couldnt help but wipe them just before they slid any further down. 'wait here~...ill go get the ice cream' i smiled and headed for the stall.
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'so...tell me about your family' i asked. i felt a bit guilty ruining the peace between us as we silently watched the waves crash onto the rocks infront of us.
looking down at me, even though we sat on the same large rock he sat on the taller end, i could see he was picking his memories. he looked back to the horizon. 'well, as you can see, i have a brother...'
'dujun' nodding once as i said his name, looking at him so he could continue.
'yes, dujun, and also a little sister back at home.' he tilted his head sideways so he could glance at me from the corner of his eyes, pretending to look at the sea but in fact he was searching for my reaction.
'ok-ay' i said slowly, 'you have a sister...continue~'
'well...its sorta a lame story...' he shrugged, trying to brush it off so it was my turn to talk.
'lame or not, i still want to hear...im very interested gikwang' i stared at him, sincerely. there was something about gikwang, he always kept that aspect of his life so private. its not like he was doing it on purpose but it felt as though, he felt something negative towards it.
sighing, he agreed, 'okay then, if you REALLY want to hear...' glaring at me once, then turning back to face the sea. he seemed like he was in his own world now. 'i dont know where to begin...i suppose ill start from the beginning then...when i was small, my family would always take holiday trips here. that was how i know a lot about this place. even when my mother passed away, we continued to come...it became kind of like a tradition.'
i wanted to say something at the time, but when he said it, he made it like he didnt mind anymore, and that he didnt want me to feel sorry, he continued without any pauses.
'she left us when we were young. it hurt us very much, but weve moved on, knowing that she lived a very fulfilling life and that she was always happy.' smiling widely, he said, 'everytime, my mother was always smiled and laughed. she was so...beautiful and amazing. she worked well with my dad because he is so uptight and business-like. it was really hard for him to let her go after that which made him an even more hard working businessman now. anyways, well, he owns his own business back home, a very stable and strong company. he wants my brother to become like him, but because dujun is very stubborn with his passion for food and cooking, my father let him do a little bit of his thing and make it more reliable and full of potential, hence, the restaurant in a five star hotel. he started the ideas for dujun, and now he owns a restaurant. now he is focusing on me now. its my turn. we came here to visit dujun, but it was mainly for me, so i can know how the whole system works and so i can learn from my brother....'
'do you know what you want to become though? i mean, your brother, hes a chef....what about you?' i was so absorbed into his story, his life which was so much more interesting than mine.
'well, thats the problem.' he sighed and lowered his head, 'i dont know.'
realising his frustration i let out a silent, 'oh.'
looking around and then finally at me, he said, 'weve been here long enough' and slowly stood up, 'lets go~ i still have one more place to take you to today~'
looking at him as he stood tall, i was suprised, again, 'oh really? ok~' i tried standing up, but my shoes were nothing against the algae on the rock surface. gikwang he held out his hand for me, but i told him to go first, there wasnt a lot of space on the the rock.
'becareful, gin. the rocks are slippery.' he warned eyeing my every move from a distance
'yes, i got it-woah!' i slipped and using my left hand to stop the fall, the rock cut me deep across the palm, 'oow~'
'gin!' gikwang ran towards me, leaning on the closest rock, 'are you okay??' he looked so worried, his eyes were wide open and his jaw was slightly dropped. he was frowning.
'yeah...dont worry gikwang...im fine' pulling on a brave face to avoid seeing him frown, i gave him a grin.
as we walked, i felt something wierd on my left hand, observing it secretly incase something did happen. what he doesnt know and i didnt know before, was that my hand was bleeding like mad. the pain was getting stronger and my eyes started to water a bit as i looked down on the deep, red, cut. gikwang was wondering why i kept my head down the whole time, until he noticed what i was looking at.
'oh! youre bleeding gin!' he stopped abruptly and took out my hand, gently turning it over to look at the deep cut on my palm. sighing he kept his eyes on the cut, 'there is a convenience store here, well have to drop by to get some stuff.'
nodding, i tried to keep my tears from falling down, but two drops escaped.
'its okay, gin. just distract yourself so you wont focus on the pain.' he looked into my watery, red eyes so intensely that i had to look away after a few second. i keep it undercontrol, the pain was unbearable, but i didnt want him to worry too much. but when i saw so much care in stare it felt as if he blamed himself for me getting cut even though it had nothing to do with him. i slowly slid my left hand out of his to signal him to start walking, but i accidentally scrunched up my fist. a sharp pain shot through my hand and up my arm.
flinching i reflexed letting out a curse, 'shi-' but before i finished the word something pressed on my lips. it was soft and smooth. letting my arms flop, i stood there. as gikwang held me, one hand on my lower back, and the other on my neck, the pain began to fade. it was being replaced with pleasure and want. we continued kissing for what seemed like forever then moving back from the kiss, i felt his lips smile, they curved up as mine remained the same. moving his face away slowly, i opened my eyes and saw a content and relieved face.
'come on~ lets get you patched up~' he grabbed my un-injured hand and started jogging to the store.
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'this is going to hurt a bit' he looked at me face scrunched as he squatted on the floor in front of me.
'a bit?' i joked, trying to hide my fear. as soon as he wiped the cut with the sterilizer, i pressed my lips together hard, silently screaming inside.
'youre strong...' gikwang commented as he unwrapped the bandage and then started wrapping my hand, 'if this were to happen to me, i might have died...' pausing to wait for me to react, then began chuckling at his own joke.
i couldnt help but laugh along, his joke wasnt at all funny, but the way he found it funny, was cute.
'thank you gikwang~' i tried to look for his eyes, but he was so focused on wrapping my hand perfectly, he kept asking, 'is this too tight? does it hurt?' i had to thank him again.
'its alright~ as long as youre okay' he finally looked up, and smiled again, 'yeap were done!' stretching as he stood up and deciding to sat down next to me when he saw that i was still burying the pain.
i observed his work nodding, while he opened the bottle of water, taking a huge gulp, he put it in my face, 'have some and afterwards, ill take you to that place i wanted to take you to~'
i drank and followed him obediently on the left.
as we walked in silence, the sun began to set, creating this beautiful purple, blue and green light. there were more and more people now since we were closer to the main central area. i had to dodge a few people here and there as they bustled past and out of nowhere gikwang grabbed my right hand with his left and moved me across to his right, holding my left hand carefully and gently.
i looked at him curious to why he did that since it was my injured hand and in response he stopped to face me eye-smiling sweetly, 'im worried that other people might run or bang into your hand, so it best that i hold it so its safe~' once he finished talking he blushed a little and then turned to start walking again.
'okay~' i answered, there was really nothing else i could say, plus i couldnt stop smiling. why is he so sweet?
'here we are~' he stopped us infront of this grand entrance, 'the is the most popular shopping mall here~'
i looked up to find the highest level of this building, and i literally had to tilt my head back. it was around 25 or more levels.
'wow~ its big and so modern and new~' i gasped out loud
'yes~ it has tonnes of labels from louis vuitton to streetwear labels and also other small brands with high quality but low prices' he chuckled, 'i saw it on the ad' shrugging he led us in.
'wait gikwang...' i pulled him aside
'what is it?'
'i think its best that you shop yours and ill shop mine....we can choose a place to meet and what time....' i side smiled when he looked at me confused.
'okay then...well meet here at 6:30...is that enough time?'
'yeap~ i dont buy much anyways...so ill see you later?'
'ok~'
we parted and went to the levels which sold the things we were interested in, but before i look for things myself, i had a plan. the plan to secretly follow gikwang. i wanted to buy something for him, and i didnt know what, so right now would be the perfect time to create a to buy list. walking back to where we separated, i saw him going up the escalator. keeping a comfortable and safe distance, i was in spy-mode.
Sunday, January 30, 2011
Monday, January 17, 2011
PROXIMITY [part 6]
i woke up face down on my bed, to the sound of a bird calling outside my window. i was tired and i felt violent. violent thoughts always pop up into my head everytime my beautiful sleep is interrupted. one thing i CAN NOT stand, be annoyed up. as my mind filled with violent acts to what i should do to the bird to shut it up. i turned around to face the ceiling and was suddenly calmed by the sun beaming in and filling the room with warm light. it was fresh, and energising. flipping the duvet and rolling out of bed, i hovered to the bathroom, eyes barely open. i saw something white under the door to my room. gliding over i picked up the piece of paper and opened it. it read:
groaning as i remembered that i forgot to reply my sister since her last text, i slumped to the bathroom to clean up. as i brushed i realised i also forgot something else but i still couldnt quite grasp it. halfway through gurgling i suddenly remembered but it was too late because of the sudden reaction i had as the info popped into my head. as i looked at the mirror, water and bubbles were squirted all over from the water i had in my mouth. i forgot to reply gikwang. it isnt a big deal, but i suppose the thought of gikwang and forgetting about him made me giddy. frozen for a while i couldnt help but to burst out laughing. finally after casually wiping down the mirror i searched for my new phone.
'right...should i text back? or should i call?' talking to myself as i over analysed, i began to pro and con, 'if i text him, it would seem a bit too rude, but then i wouldnt really be bothering him. if i call him, he could hear how happy i am about the phone, but then it might be awkward because ive got nothing much to say.' sighing then falling back onto the bed i decided to text him.
-start- hey gikwang its gin...THANK SO MUCH FOR THE PHONE! i love it really much~ :D -end-
another fact about me? i completely suck at showing my feelings. avoiding hesitation or rereading it and editing it over and over again, i quickly pressed SEND but then i began to freak out a little because i didnt remember if i checked it for spelling errors. sighing as a sign that i had completely given up, i threw on a worn out blue and white striped tee and dark blue skinnies and headed out the door to go to the breakfast bar downstairs, but before i touched the door something in my pocket was vibrating.
'um...hello?' i fumbled at the mobile, realising it was a call.
a smooth husky voice was on the other end, 'hey, i got your text...'
'gikwang?'
'haha yes~' i could hear him smiling, 'anyways...are you busy today?'
'um, no. not really'
'okay then, ill come over to your room. see ya~'
processing what he just said, i didnt know how to reply until i fully realised what was happening i stuttered, 'n-now?' but it was too late, he hung up on me already. 'aigoo~'
look down at myself and realised that the clothes i was wearing wasnt meant for guys like him to see. oh well, he is only dropping by for a few seconds probably.
not before long i heard a knock on the door. my head flicked up as my heart fluttered.
'hi-yeum~' i looked at a familiar face, crescent eyes and an adorable wide smile.
'hi~' i couldnt help but to smile back. his presence was so comforting and it felt as though i was seeing my boyfriend for the first time since hes been away or something.
'come on~ let me take you out for brunch'
'brunch?' i looked at the clock, it was already 11:30am
'yeah~' he put his hands in his pockets, 'did you just eat?'
i felt bad when i saw him pout so i replied, 'more like i just woke up, heh heh' laughing sheepishly i walked out and locked the door. the truth was, i was starving. as we waited in the elevator i couldnt help but ask, 'so...what did you do yesterday?' not wanting to face him incase he thought i was being a bit too nosy. i saw him turn his head at an angle towards me, stare and then smile.
'nothing much. i was in my room for the first half of the day and then i went to help out my brother...'
'dujun?'
'yeap~ it was quite fun working with him in the kitchen'
'you know how to cook?' i asked as we walked out into corridor, he was walking abit too fast.
'hehe of course!....well not exactly, compared with dujun, but im getting better. the basics i know though' he stopped and thought for a moment. it was cute. you could obviously see that he was thinking through the techniques he knew of, his expressions showed everything. as i chuckled he looked at me puzzled as i approached him.
'so where are we gonna eat gikwang?'
'follow me~!' he nodded his head towards the exit of the hotel.
the weather was really nice. no clouds in sight. a wide blue sky and lit up by sun which didnt burn. it was a cool, a balance between wind and heat. we walked slowly under the palm trees on the bricked pathway opposite the beach. i looked around, this town looked very new and there were hardly any people.
from the corner of my eye, i looked to see what gikwang was doing beside me. he was so focused looking straight, i wanted to say something but i didnt know what. opening my mouth then shutting it i felt like i was a fish gasping for air. imagining what i may have looked like i couldnt help but giggle. gikwang shot me another one of his confused look, but he was smiling.
'what?' i asked, 'find something amusing?' i blushed a little.
'no. nothing. for a second i thought you knew what i was thinking. haha' he quickened his pace
'what do you mean?' he got me. i was curious.
'oh, nothing really.' he bobbed his head slowly left and right, making that face which says, not telling, written all over it
'what ever...~!' i punched his arm and giggled. then realising what i just did i began my power walk into a jog.ohmygosh~ why did i punch his arm? and then giggle?! did he think i was flirting with him? gosh gin! you NEVER giggle, its so girly and....*sigh~
'hey~! wait up! we're nearly there by the way~!' i heard gikwang shout behind me running to catch up to me. i halted to a stop and found myself standing outside a little shop. looking up i saw the sign, PASTA-RELLA.
cute. i thought. the store was painted yellow with decorations of sea blue, and coral pink. very beachy and bright like those vintage store. taking in the smell of a mix of pasta sauces and strong herb smells as gikwang swung open the door, he waited for me to enter first as he ducked his head around to check if there were any seats. i entered to a small figured girl who had the sweetest smile. she was probably around my age, but she look so innocent and tiny.
'table for two?' she asked in cute voice
gikwang brushed up behind me, standing a bit too close. i could feel him nod beside my head as his heat passed through our two layers of fabric. his sweet and delicious smell escaping from his skin. the walk and short run under the sun made him sweat a little and that just made his smell even stronger, even more luring.
'this way please.' the girl directed, never dropping the wide smile from her face.
confused and slightly dizzy from the sudden smells coming at me from all around, i felt a slight push on my lower back. gikwang was gently pushing me forward, turning around to look at him. his eyes was trained at the girl who was standing beside our table waiting for us. realising that i should be following her, i quickly glided over, sitting down where she directed me. the girl handed out the menus as gikwang sat opposite me in the booth. wanting to forget about my previous 'girly thing' and 'lostness', i began glaring at the menu, scanning through every single dish to avoid gikwang and the girls eyes. ive never been like that before, so i never really knew how to deal with it. im so used to being alone that when i do random things, i dont care because people arent watching. the close proximity that gikwang has managed to build made me a little uncomfortable...not really uncomfortable but...more like im trying to control myself from doing something that i should only keep in my head.
'hmm...' i heard gikwang think aloud, 'there is so many? hmm...what to have?' keeping my head down but peeking up, i saw him pout. i really couldnt help but smile, how could such a cute adorable face have such a manly yet, i have to admit, sexy figure? snickering i looked back down at my menu as i saw gikwang head flick up to look at me confused. a few minutes later the girl came back.
'so...what will it be that you're ording today?' the girl smiled at me and then turned her body slightly to face gikwang.
the girl was cute, sure, she was pretty, but you cant help but feel a bit of competition from her. the way she looks at me, all smiley, but you could see the hidden daggers in her eyes. the candy topped, pink DAGGERS. im used to this, from girls like her. fake. i just simply ignore them because they arent worth it. but why do i feel a tinge of jealousy? i mean when gikwang looks at her? but why should i care? gikwang and i are only friends...weve only met a few days for goodness sake! sighing as i got annoyed at myself for caring so much i whispered, 'why do i even bother?'
'gin?' gikwang looked at me puzzled like i answered his question but answered it wierdly.
'huh?'
'what are you going to order?' he lifted his eyebrows, jaw slightly dropped and opened his eyes wide as if it helped him see what i was thinking about.
'oh! um right...ill just have the macaroni and cheese with bacon thanks.' i randomly pointed at a dish on the menu, shut it a bit too loudly and handed it to the girl. i could see her shake her head a bit but she quickly stopped as gikwang looked up at her, smiled and said thanks.
i could tell that he wanted to know what was all that was, since he kept fiddling with his watch and playing around with his cup, 'are you okay?' he finally asked sighing. he looked scared to ask but also relieved that he got it out.
'um...i dunno...i just havent come out with people, you know, other than family before. and when i do im normally all composed and cool...i dunno what happened to me today' i side smiled and shrugged, trying to laugh it off because for starters, i never told anyone about my composed side and my clumsy side and secondly it was getting a bit too awkward.
'aigoo~' gikwang chuckled, 'its okay!! im like that too sometimes heh heh' he clapped twice, 'you dont need to worry about being slow, clumsy, dorky or whatever infront of me. i find it actually quite cute...' he whispered the last part while putting his hands together on the table and continued, 'not everyone is perfect....' he wasnt looking at me anymore, it seemed as though he was in another space, looking at something that was floating above my head. after a few seconds of silence he began talking again, 'anyways, your personality is very interesting' he stared at me smiling, but you could see he was searching for something in my eyes.
'oh~ thank you. youre not bad yourself' you are perfect, but i couldnt tell him that, i dont even know for sure if he really WAS perfect, but the feeling i get when im with him its never happened to me before.
'what was it that you were thinking about before?' i asked him, referring back to pre the whole 'girly thing'.
'oh' he stared at me, trying to script what he was going to say next. 'well...i was planning on asking you how long you are staying here.'
'im staying for two weeks,' i quickly answered so he could continue.
'oh. well. um. heh heh. its actually nothing really....i was just thinking that if you are staying here for a while and have nothing much to do, we could hang out everyday.' he looked at me cautiously and quickly added, 'that is IF you want, and if youre not busy.' i saw his cheeks go pink.
'haha sure! no problem. i actually have nothing to do since my cousin is too busy and i dont want to bother her at work.' i smiled, so happy with what he said.
'good. i know a few great places that would be a pity if we dont go together.' together. my heart stopped a beat and fluttered as i heard him say this word.
'oh. um. yes. sure. okay' i responded, taken aback with all the fantasies that played through my head. him taking me to a quiet, beautiful spot somewhere in this town. as the buildings light up the view while teh sun sets. sitting in the cinema watching movies, laughing and joking around. people watching. food booth tasting. playing a few rounds of sports and games.
'im sorry, to interupt, but here are your orders.' the girl shoved the bowls in between gikwang and me, as i realised weve been staring into each others eyes. somewhat irritated but thankful since because i was slightly blushing. i recalled staring into his liquid brown eyes which were so deep. they sucked you right in to a place where you feel its only you and him, a private yet open space. the desire. the want. the need. the happiness. like the holes in your soul and heart have been filled while looking into those beautiful eyes. clearing my throat i gestured to him to start eating. the whole time, we exchanged small histories, recent stories, likes and dislikes, relationships and short longing stares which were often cut even shorter by the other because it was getting too strong.
we spent two hours in the restaurant enjoying each others company.
'to tell the truth,' he leaned towards me, arms crossed on the table, 'its been a while since ive talked to a girl like this' then he tilted his head to right and smiled.
nodding, i told him, 'to tell the truth, ive NEVER talked to a guy like this...'
chuckling he took out a few bills from his wallet and stood up, 'come on~ lets go~ ill take you somewhere....' holding out his hand as he stood beside my chair, i took it happily and he led us towards the door, straight passed the girl who was leaning against the counter giving him flirty glances. he smiled at her and then waved using our hands. as soon as she saw that he was holding my hand comfortably and also his emphasis, which actually didnt mean anything in reality because we both knew we werent in THAT kind of relationship, she scoffed and turned her back towards us. chuckling again gikwang opened the door, as i stepped out, he released my hand, to let me take in the wash of fresh smells from the sea and sun.
closing my eyes to clear out the past memories that resurfaced in our discussion before, and the crazy herb smells from inside the pasta-rella, i heard him say as he stepped beside me, 'you feel better?'
i nodded finally opening my eyes, turning to look at him and grinned. just as i was about to start walking i felt something hold my hand. looking down i saw my hand intertwined with another. shocked i flicked my head up to see who it belonged to.
'our hands seem to fit perfectly' the husky voice sounded both, suprised and relieved. his eyes hidden behind two crescents which were curved so sweetly, matched with a brilliant wide smile showing his perfect little teeth. heating up a little, i tried to pull my hand away as i said yeah, but instead he squeezed my hand holding it tightly and started walking.
'oh~! wait, but my hands are getting sweaty!' i blurted, then feeling like an idiot, groaning as he pulled me behind him. all i recieved was a loud hearty laugh. the kind that made you feel like you did something dorky but also made you feel alright and reassured that it was okay. catching up to his pace, i walked next to him, keeping a slight distance between us. but the longer we walked like this, the more i realisedthe separation line between our bodies was getting smaller and smaller, until our arms were brushing against our bodies as we swung them. for that one moment, it felt so good. the kind of good that cannot be imagined or described. the kind of feeling that makes you want to hug him. grab him and kiss him. yet you have to restrain yourself because you dont want this moment to end. even though it was for a few minutes, i already feel as though his hand WAS a missing piece to mine. like a lock and key. he was right. our hands did fit perfectly.
hey cuz~
by the time you read this ill be out already...
look after yourself~ eat well, i dont think ill be seeing you today for dinner...
ill call you if there are any change of plans
btw i phoned your sister, she was spazzy~ did you forget to call her? it doesnt matter now, i told her youve been very busy helping me out ;]
love you~ Z
by the time you read this ill be out already...
look after yourself~ eat well, i dont think ill be seeing you today for dinner...
ill call you if there are any change of plans
btw i phoned your sister, she was spazzy~ did you forget to call her? it doesnt matter now, i told her youve been very busy helping me out ;]
love you~ Z
groaning as i remembered that i forgot to reply my sister since her last text, i slumped to the bathroom to clean up. as i brushed i realised i also forgot something else but i still couldnt quite grasp it. halfway through gurgling i suddenly remembered but it was too late because of the sudden reaction i had as the info popped into my head. as i looked at the mirror, water and bubbles were squirted all over from the water i had in my mouth. i forgot to reply gikwang. it isnt a big deal, but i suppose the thought of gikwang and forgetting about him made me giddy. frozen for a while i couldnt help but to burst out laughing. finally after casually wiping down the mirror i searched for my new phone.
'right...should i text back? or should i call?' talking to myself as i over analysed, i began to pro and con, 'if i text him, it would seem a bit too rude, but then i wouldnt really be bothering him. if i call him, he could hear how happy i am about the phone, but then it might be awkward because ive got nothing much to say.' sighing then falling back onto the bed i decided to text him.
-start- hey gikwang its gin...THANK SO MUCH FOR THE PHONE! i love it really much~ :D -end-
another fact about me? i completely suck at showing my feelings. avoiding hesitation or rereading it and editing it over and over again, i quickly pressed SEND but then i began to freak out a little because i didnt remember if i checked it for spelling errors. sighing as a sign that i had completely given up, i threw on a worn out blue and white striped tee and dark blue skinnies and headed out the door to go to the breakfast bar downstairs, but before i touched the door something in my pocket was vibrating.
'um...hello?' i fumbled at the mobile, realising it was a call.
a smooth husky voice was on the other end, 'hey, i got your text...'
'gikwang?'
'haha yes~' i could hear him smiling, 'anyways...are you busy today?'
'um, no. not really'
'okay then, ill come over to your room. see ya~'
processing what he just said, i didnt know how to reply until i fully realised what was happening i stuttered, 'n-now?' but it was too late, he hung up on me already. 'aigoo~'
look down at myself and realised that the clothes i was wearing wasnt meant for guys like him to see. oh well, he is only dropping by for a few seconds probably.
not before long i heard a knock on the door. my head flicked up as my heart fluttered.
'hi-yeum~' i looked at a familiar face, crescent eyes and an adorable wide smile.
'hi~' i couldnt help but to smile back. his presence was so comforting and it felt as though i was seeing my boyfriend for the first time since hes been away or something.
'come on~ let me take you out for brunch'
'brunch?' i looked at the clock, it was already 11:30am
'yeah~' he put his hands in his pockets, 'did you just eat?'
i felt bad when i saw him pout so i replied, 'more like i just woke up, heh heh' laughing sheepishly i walked out and locked the door. the truth was, i was starving. as we waited in the elevator i couldnt help but ask, 'so...what did you do yesterday?' not wanting to face him incase he thought i was being a bit too nosy. i saw him turn his head at an angle towards me, stare and then smile.
'nothing much. i was in my room for the first half of the day and then i went to help out my brother...'
'dujun?'
'yeap~ it was quite fun working with him in the kitchen'
'you know how to cook?' i asked as we walked out into corridor, he was walking abit too fast.
'hehe of course!....well not exactly, compared with dujun, but im getting better. the basics i know though' he stopped and thought for a moment. it was cute. you could obviously see that he was thinking through the techniques he knew of, his expressions showed everything. as i chuckled he looked at me puzzled as i approached him.
'so where are we gonna eat gikwang?'
'follow me~!' he nodded his head towards the exit of the hotel.
the weather was really nice. no clouds in sight. a wide blue sky and lit up by sun which didnt burn. it was a cool, a balance between wind and heat. we walked slowly under the palm trees on the bricked pathway opposite the beach. i looked around, this town looked very new and there were hardly any people.
from the corner of my eye, i looked to see what gikwang was doing beside me. he was so focused looking straight, i wanted to say something but i didnt know what. opening my mouth then shutting it i felt like i was a fish gasping for air. imagining what i may have looked like i couldnt help but giggle. gikwang shot me another one of his confused look, but he was smiling.
'what?' i asked, 'find something amusing?' i blushed a little.
'no. nothing. for a second i thought you knew what i was thinking. haha' he quickened his pace
'what do you mean?' he got me. i was curious.
'oh, nothing really.' he bobbed his head slowly left and right, making that face which says, not telling, written all over it
'what ever...~!' i punched his arm and giggled. then realising what i just did i began my power walk into a jog.ohmygosh~ why did i punch his arm? and then giggle?! did he think i was flirting with him? gosh gin! you NEVER giggle, its so girly and....*sigh~
'hey~! wait up! we're nearly there by the way~!' i heard gikwang shout behind me running to catch up to me. i halted to a stop and found myself standing outside a little shop. looking up i saw the sign, PASTA-RELLA.
cute. i thought. the store was painted yellow with decorations of sea blue, and coral pink. very beachy and bright like those vintage store. taking in the smell of a mix of pasta sauces and strong herb smells as gikwang swung open the door, he waited for me to enter first as he ducked his head around to check if there were any seats. i entered to a small figured girl who had the sweetest smile. she was probably around my age, but she look so innocent and tiny.
'table for two?' she asked in cute voice
gikwang brushed up behind me, standing a bit too close. i could feel him nod beside my head as his heat passed through our two layers of fabric. his sweet and delicious smell escaping from his skin. the walk and short run under the sun made him sweat a little and that just made his smell even stronger, even more luring.
'this way please.' the girl directed, never dropping the wide smile from her face.
confused and slightly dizzy from the sudden smells coming at me from all around, i felt a slight push on my lower back. gikwang was gently pushing me forward, turning around to look at him. his eyes was trained at the girl who was standing beside our table waiting for us. realising that i should be following her, i quickly glided over, sitting down where she directed me. the girl handed out the menus as gikwang sat opposite me in the booth. wanting to forget about my previous 'girly thing' and 'lostness', i began glaring at the menu, scanning through every single dish to avoid gikwang and the girls eyes. ive never been like that before, so i never really knew how to deal with it. im so used to being alone that when i do random things, i dont care because people arent watching. the close proximity that gikwang has managed to build made me a little uncomfortable...not really uncomfortable but...more like im trying to control myself from doing something that i should only keep in my head.
'hmm...' i heard gikwang think aloud, 'there is so many? hmm...what to have?' keeping my head down but peeking up, i saw him pout. i really couldnt help but smile, how could such a cute adorable face have such a manly yet, i have to admit, sexy figure? snickering i looked back down at my menu as i saw gikwang head flick up to look at me confused. a few minutes later the girl came back.
'so...what will it be that you're ording today?' the girl smiled at me and then turned her body slightly to face gikwang.
the girl was cute, sure, she was pretty, but you cant help but feel a bit of competition from her. the way she looks at me, all smiley, but you could see the hidden daggers in her eyes. the candy topped, pink DAGGERS. im used to this, from girls like her. fake. i just simply ignore them because they arent worth it. but why do i feel a tinge of jealousy? i mean when gikwang looks at her? but why should i care? gikwang and i are only friends...weve only met a few days for goodness sake! sighing as i got annoyed at myself for caring so much i whispered, 'why do i even bother?'
'gin?' gikwang looked at me puzzled like i answered his question but answered it wierdly.
'huh?'
'what are you going to order?' he lifted his eyebrows, jaw slightly dropped and opened his eyes wide as if it helped him see what i was thinking about.
'oh! um right...ill just have the macaroni and cheese with bacon thanks.' i randomly pointed at a dish on the menu, shut it a bit too loudly and handed it to the girl. i could see her shake her head a bit but she quickly stopped as gikwang looked up at her, smiled and said thanks.
i could tell that he wanted to know what was all that was, since he kept fiddling with his watch and playing around with his cup, 'are you okay?' he finally asked sighing. he looked scared to ask but also relieved that he got it out.
'um...i dunno...i just havent come out with people, you know, other than family before. and when i do im normally all composed and cool...i dunno what happened to me today' i side smiled and shrugged, trying to laugh it off because for starters, i never told anyone about my composed side and my clumsy side and secondly it was getting a bit too awkward.
'aigoo~' gikwang chuckled, 'its okay!! im like that too sometimes heh heh' he clapped twice, 'you dont need to worry about being slow, clumsy, dorky or whatever infront of me. i find it actually quite cute...' he whispered the last part while putting his hands together on the table and continued, 'not everyone is perfect....' he wasnt looking at me anymore, it seemed as though he was in another space, looking at something that was floating above my head. after a few seconds of silence he began talking again, 'anyways, your personality is very interesting' he stared at me smiling, but you could see he was searching for something in my eyes.
'oh~ thank you. youre not bad yourself' you are perfect, but i couldnt tell him that, i dont even know for sure if he really WAS perfect, but the feeling i get when im with him its never happened to me before.
'what was it that you were thinking about before?' i asked him, referring back to pre the whole 'girly thing'.
'oh' he stared at me, trying to script what he was going to say next. 'well...i was planning on asking you how long you are staying here.'
'im staying for two weeks,' i quickly answered so he could continue.
'oh. well. um. heh heh. its actually nothing really....i was just thinking that if you are staying here for a while and have nothing much to do, we could hang out everyday.' he looked at me cautiously and quickly added, 'that is IF you want, and if youre not busy.' i saw his cheeks go pink.
'haha sure! no problem. i actually have nothing to do since my cousin is too busy and i dont want to bother her at work.' i smiled, so happy with what he said.
'good. i know a few great places that would be a pity if we dont go together.' together. my heart stopped a beat and fluttered as i heard him say this word.
'oh. um. yes. sure. okay' i responded, taken aback with all the fantasies that played through my head. him taking me to a quiet, beautiful spot somewhere in this town. as the buildings light up the view while teh sun sets. sitting in the cinema watching movies, laughing and joking around. people watching. food booth tasting. playing a few rounds of sports and games.
'im sorry, to interupt, but here are your orders.' the girl shoved the bowls in between gikwang and me, as i realised weve been staring into each others eyes. somewhat irritated but thankful since because i was slightly blushing. i recalled staring into his liquid brown eyes which were so deep. they sucked you right in to a place where you feel its only you and him, a private yet open space. the desire. the want. the need. the happiness. like the holes in your soul and heart have been filled while looking into those beautiful eyes. clearing my throat i gestured to him to start eating. the whole time, we exchanged small histories, recent stories, likes and dislikes, relationships and short longing stares which were often cut even shorter by the other because it was getting too strong.
we spent two hours in the restaurant enjoying each others company.
'to tell the truth,' he leaned towards me, arms crossed on the table, 'its been a while since ive talked to a girl like this' then he tilted his head to right and smiled.
nodding, i told him, 'to tell the truth, ive NEVER talked to a guy like this...'
chuckling he took out a few bills from his wallet and stood up, 'come on~ lets go~ ill take you somewhere....' holding out his hand as he stood beside my chair, i took it happily and he led us towards the door, straight passed the girl who was leaning against the counter giving him flirty glances. he smiled at her and then waved using our hands. as soon as she saw that he was holding my hand comfortably and also his emphasis, which actually didnt mean anything in reality because we both knew we werent in THAT kind of relationship, she scoffed and turned her back towards us. chuckling again gikwang opened the door, as i stepped out, he released my hand, to let me take in the wash of fresh smells from the sea and sun.
closing my eyes to clear out the past memories that resurfaced in our discussion before, and the crazy herb smells from inside the pasta-rella, i heard him say as he stepped beside me, 'you feel better?'
i nodded finally opening my eyes, turning to look at him and grinned. just as i was about to start walking i felt something hold my hand. looking down i saw my hand intertwined with another. shocked i flicked my head up to see who it belonged to.
'our hands seem to fit perfectly' the husky voice sounded both, suprised and relieved. his eyes hidden behind two crescents which were curved so sweetly, matched with a brilliant wide smile showing his perfect little teeth. heating up a little, i tried to pull my hand away as i said yeah, but instead he squeezed my hand holding it tightly and started walking.
'oh~! wait, but my hands are getting sweaty!' i blurted, then feeling like an idiot, groaning as he pulled me behind him. all i recieved was a loud hearty laugh. the kind that made you feel like you did something dorky but also made you feel alright and reassured that it was okay. catching up to his pace, i walked next to him, keeping a slight distance between us. but the longer we walked like this, the more i realisedthe separation line between our bodies was getting smaller and smaller, until our arms were brushing against our bodies as we swung them. for that one moment, it felt so good. the kind of good that cannot be imagined or described. the kind of feeling that makes you want to hug him. grab him and kiss him. yet you have to restrain yourself because you dont want this moment to end. even though it was for a few minutes, i already feel as though his hand WAS a missing piece to mine. like a lock and key. he was right. our hands did fit perfectly.
Thursday, January 6, 2011
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Tuesday, January 4, 2011
ONE THING AFTER ANOTHER [part 5]
ever since this morning with the whole escape attempt from the room, i never saw gikwang for the rest of the day. sitting on my bed with the tv on, i began to do what girls would do when they found a crush. squeal silently and giggle. after pigging out this morning on bacon and eggs, which i have to say was delicious. we headed over to her temporary office. nothing much happened, well nothing much happened for me. i just sat in her room, looking at her client and her go over swatches of fabrics, colours and organising layouts. though it was interesting watching her do what she does. i was seriouisly bored to death. it wasnt like i could join in and start giving advice, which the client really needed. he seemed so out of it, choosing odd colours and all that. he was lucky he hired my cousin for sure. afterwards we had a break, my cousin and i started talking about her life, then my life and how maybe i should just do what ever i want during this holiday instead of following her. after us both agreeing, we headed back to the office again. afterwards i couldnt really remember much because i fell asleep for 3 hours, got woken up by my cousin and then sent back to the hotel via taxi. ive been in my room for the past few hours just blankly staring at the tv screen because i was too busy fantasizing. above the giggling, silent squealing and random flinches, i heard my stomache begin to grumble. looking at the clock beside my bed i saw it was 7pm already. time to put fantasizing to rest and call for some room service. i have never in my life ordered food from the room and had it brought over so i was keen to try.
ring~ring~
'hello~ this is sandy from room service, how may i help you?' the lady greeted
'um...i was wondering what do you have for dinner tonight?' i was really unsure if this was how you ordered
'yes, miss, if you look in the drawer on your bedside table you can find a menu inside'
following her instructions i pulled out a little menu, observing it quickly because i didnt want her to wait, and i couldnt be bothered calling again, 'ill just have the steak sandwich, chips and a scoop of chocolate ice cream thanks'
'no problem, miss, it will be brought up to you in 20 minutes'
'thank you' i hung up. now in pain from hunger, i laid down, the ceiling was pretty. i never noticed the detailed patterns on it. well obviously since this time was the first time i laid down on this bed. my mind slowly drifted back to last night, to him.
ding~dong~
'wow, that was a bit too fast~' i commented, muting the tv and jumping off the bed. as i looked through the peep hole i didnt see anyone, 'it is one of those lame dorr tricks again?' sighing i opened the door just in case. looking left and right i saw nobody, but just as i was about to close the door, i saw a small wrapped box on the floor near my feet. picking it up and looking around one last time, i closed the door and sat back on the bed. the wrapper was dark blue, like a midnight deep blue and it was decorated with a shiny silver ribbon. no card, no note. 'i hope its not a bomb' i said chuckling to myself. i always have horrible humour when i was hungry. carefully untieing the ribbon and stripping the box i found that it was a phone package. on the package i saw that it was a new nokia slide phone. black. frozen for a good 5 minutes i opened it. it was beautiful. it was sleek and shiny like a brand new car. how did this person know i liked slide phones?
'wait....wait a minute....maybe they sent this to the wrong room, and i opened it! oh no!' i stopped for a second to think, 'or...could it be? from gikwang?'
i recalling the phone incident from yesterday...
'hello~ this is sandy from room service, how may i help you?' the lady greeted
'um...i was wondering what do you have for dinner tonight?' i was really unsure if this was how you ordered
'yes, miss, if you look in the drawer on your bedside table you can find a menu inside'
following her instructions i pulled out a little menu, observing it quickly because i didnt want her to wait, and i couldnt be bothered calling again, 'ill just have the steak sandwich, chips and a scoop of chocolate ice cream thanks'
'no problem, miss, it will be brought up to you in 20 minutes'
'thank you' i hung up. now in pain from hunger, i laid down, the ceiling was pretty. i never noticed the detailed patterns on it. well obviously since this time was the first time i laid down on this bed. my mind slowly drifted back to last night, to him.
ding~dong~
'wow, that was a bit too fast~' i commented, muting the tv and jumping off the bed. as i looked through the peep hole i didnt see anyone, 'it is one of those lame dorr tricks again?' sighing i opened the door just in case. looking left and right i saw nobody, but just as i was about to close the door, i saw a small wrapped box on the floor near my feet. picking it up and looking around one last time, i closed the door and sat back on the bed. the wrapper was dark blue, like a midnight deep blue and it was decorated with a shiny silver ribbon. no card, no note. 'i hope its not a bomb' i said chuckling to myself. i always have horrible humour when i was hungry. carefully untieing the ribbon and stripping the box i found that it was a phone package. on the package i saw that it was a new nokia slide phone. black. frozen for a good 5 minutes i opened it. it was beautiful. it was sleek and shiny like a brand new car. how did this person know i liked slide phones?
'wait....wait a minute....maybe they sent this to the wrong room, and i opened it! oh no!' i stopped for a second to think, 'or...could it be? from gikwang?'
i recalling the phone incident from yesterday...
he bent down to pick up the pieces...and then handed them to me, with his head slightly bowed i saw his thick lips move, 'i promise i will buy you a new phone~ please forgive me....'
i would have thought he wouldnt have since i told him not to. sighing, i took out the sim card i saved from my bag and inserted in into the slide phone. as it turned on i began looking through the functions, getting to know how it works and what it could do when i saw a message in the drafts folder.
-start- hey gin~ i promised you that i would buy you a new phone so here it is! i hope you like it. this phone reminded me of you. it looked cool and stylish so i bought it. text me after you read this or you can cal me :] -end-
smiling i looked through the contact information, 'i hope he stored his number in here, or else how am i going to call him?' great. now im talking to myself. scrolling down i saw his name, Lee Gikwang.
i replied back to him, thinking through what i should say, but i just sat there. there were too many things i wanted to say, but then i didnt want to sound like an idiot. this reply is going to take a while to create. before i could start someone was at the door again, thinking it was gikwang, i rushed to open the door.
'room service' a guy smiled. shocked that it was gikwang and also that this guy was cute i could only come up with a, hi. i couldnt really tell if he was a around my age or younger.
'you ordered the steak sandwich, chips and chocolate ice cream right?' the guy asked
'um...yes! i did, here' i opened the door wider, 'bring it in' i recovered my breath.
as he parked the trolley table he turned around, 'you know, i looove the ice cream here. you were smart to order it you know? hehe' the guy smiled again tilting his head to the right.
'im yoseob' he held out his hands which were atleast bigger than his small round face.
'er...im gin' i replied shaking his hand.
'im sorry, i just started working here for a few weeks. it quite exciting you know! today it the first day i start room service, ive been training, studying and then working in the kitchen. but now its my turn to do room service, i have to say.' he finally stopped to take a breath, 'the food smelt so good~' he bounced once then continuing, 'i know we we just met and all, but do you mind if i join you for dinner?'
i stood there, not knowing what to say and what to do, i just nodded. how could i reject this person when they were so cute, pouting slightly and arms hanging limplessly like a baby monkey.
happily he rushed to the door and before he disappeared he quickly said, 'ill be right back!!'
sighing i headed over to the bed and the food, ignoring the open door, i lifted the lid and looked at the sandwich.
grumble~
'yes, i know stomach. but we have to wait for yoseob...' as i unmuted the tv to distract myself, my hand automatically reached for the chips, once i started eating i didnt stop.
'okay~ im back~' yoseob rolled in another trolley table, using his foot to close the door, he rolled over to the couch and sat down, 'i got some more chips, salad, sushis and noodles,' he pointed at the lids, 'if you want any you can take some.' he looked upat me and smiled. there was something about that smile that made you smile as well. it was different to gikwangs, this yoseob had a ray of energy and happiness. it was hard to avoid.
we spent the rest of the night watching, Tangled, laughing out loud, giggling, falling off the bed. to be honest it was fun hanging out with him. we didnt need to worry about much. by the end of the night, we had practicallly finished all the food, lights turned off, curtains left open, and were lying on the bed looking at the ceiling as the moonlight shone through the windows.
'yoseob...' i kept my eyes on the ceiling
'huh?' he turned his head to me
avoiding his eye contact, 'just wondering but...how come you are so nice to me?'
he chuckled turning back to face the ceiling, 'oh~ i dunno. you seem nice, plus youre the only person who is around my age, so i thought why not? i dont have many friends here...'
'really? you seem very outgoing and fun!' i blurted out~
'haha~ the hyungs treat me like a child so that stops us from being close, well i only have dujun hyung here.'
dujun? that name sounded familiar, 'ah! the chef!' yoseob nodded, 'how old are you really? yoseob?'
'ive just turned 21' he beamed
'WHAT?!' as he laughed, i couldnt believe what i was hearing.
'how about you gin?'
'im only 18' sitting up i looked out the window, 'i never knew you were older, well you do look a bigger than me, but still-'
'yea, i know. i hear that alot' cutting me off, he continued, 'well...i have to go now, im sorry if i bothered you...' he stood up, shrugged and looked frowned.
'you were no way close to bothering me yoseob~ you should drop by next time!' i suggested following him to the exit. pushing both trolley tables out into the hallway he turned around to face me.
'it was really nice meeting you, gin~ im glad i have another friend here~' smiling and waving good-bye, i saw him turning into the elevator. for a moment it felt as though he took the energy and warmth with him leaving the whole atmosphere dull and boring. locking the door i began to feel tired. i knew i forgot to do something, but at this moment, i really could not remember.
i would have thought he wouldnt have since i told him not to. sighing, i took out the sim card i saved from my bag and inserted in into the slide phone. as it turned on i began looking through the functions, getting to know how it works and what it could do when i saw a message in the drafts folder.
-start- hey gin~ i promised you that i would buy you a new phone so here it is! i hope you like it. this phone reminded me of you. it looked cool and stylish so i bought it. text me after you read this or you can cal me :] -end-
smiling i looked through the contact information, 'i hope he stored his number in here, or else how am i going to call him?' great. now im talking to myself. scrolling down i saw his name, Lee Gikwang.
i replied back to him, thinking through what i should say, but i just sat there. there were too many things i wanted to say, but then i didnt want to sound like an idiot. this reply is going to take a while to create. before i could start someone was at the door again, thinking it was gikwang, i rushed to open the door.
'room service' a guy smiled. shocked that it was gikwang and also that this guy was cute i could only come up with a, hi. i couldnt really tell if he was a around my age or younger.
'you ordered the steak sandwich, chips and chocolate ice cream right?' the guy asked
'um...yes! i did, here' i opened the door wider, 'bring it in' i recovered my breath.
as he parked the trolley table he turned around, 'you know, i looove the ice cream here. you were smart to order it you know? hehe' the guy smiled again tilting his head to the right.
'im yoseob' he held out his hands which were atleast bigger than his small round face.
'er...im gin' i replied shaking his hand.
'im sorry, i just started working here for a few weeks. it quite exciting you know! today it the first day i start room service, ive been training, studying and then working in the kitchen. but now its my turn to do room service, i have to say.' he finally stopped to take a breath, 'the food smelt so good~' he bounced once then continuing, 'i know we we just met and all, but do you mind if i join you for dinner?'
i stood there, not knowing what to say and what to do, i just nodded. how could i reject this person when they were so cute, pouting slightly and arms hanging limplessly like a baby monkey.
happily he rushed to the door and before he disappeared he quickly said, 'ill be right back!!'
sighing i headed over to the bed and the food, ignoring the open door, i lifted the lid and looked at the sandwich.
grumble~
'yes, i know stomach. but we have to wait for yoseob...' as i unmuted the tv to distract myself, my hand automatically reached for the chips, once i started eating i didnt stop.
'okay~ im back~' yoseob rolled in another trolley table, using his foot to close the door, he rolled over to the couch and sat down, 'i got some more chips, salad, sushis and noodles,' he pointed at the lids, 'if you want any you can take some.' he looked upat me and smiled. there was something about that smile that made you smile as well. it was different to gikwangs, this yoseob had a ray of energy and happiness. it was hard to avoid.
we spent the rest of the night watching, Tangled, laughing out loud, giggling, falling off the bed. to be honest it was fun hanging out with him. we didnt need to worry about much. by the end of the night, we had practicallly finished all the food, lights turned off, curtains left open, and were lying on the bed looking at the ceiling as the moonlight shone through the windows.
'yoseob...' i kept my eyes on the ceiling
'huh?' he turned his head to me
avoiding his eye contact, 'just wondering but...how come you are so nice to me?'
he chuckled turning back to face the ceiling, 'oh~ i dunno. you seem nice, plus youre the only person who is around my age, so i thought why not? i dont have many friends here...'
'really? you seem very outgoing and fun!' i blurted out~
'haha~ the hyungs treat me like a child so that stops us from being close, well i only have dujun hyung here.'
dujun? that name sounded familiar, 'ah! the chef!' yoseob nodded, 'how old are you really? yoseob?'
'ive just turned 21' he beamed
'WHAT?!' as he laughed, i couldnt believe what i was hearing.
'how about you gin?'
'im only 18' sitting up i looked out the window, 'i never knew you were older, well you do look a bigger than me, but still-'
'yea, i know. i hear that alot' cutting me off, he continued, 'well...i have to go now, im sorry if i bothered you...' he stood up, shrugged and looked frowned.
'you were no way close to bothering me yoseob~ you should drop by next time!' i suggested following him to the exit. pushing both trolley tables out into the hallway he turned around to face me.
'it was really nice meeting you, gin~ im glad i have another friend here~' smiling and waving good-bye, i saw him turning into the elevator. for a moment it felt as though he took the energy and warmth with him leaving the whole atmosphere dull and boring. locking the door i began to feel tired. i knew i forgot to do something, but at this moment, i really could not remember.
Sunday, January 2, 2011
TAKING A BREAK [part 4]
i was standing. a spotlight shone directly on me but it came from nowhere. i was surrounded literally by stars spread out around me in a pool of deep purple and blue with scatters of light green. you could see that this 'space' was like a dome, it formed a dome even though it you were to touch it it would be like infinity. there was no way to explain it, the easiest way was to say that it was like a see-through inivible glass that separated me and the galaxy. only the floor was what seemed man-made, it was concrete, but it wasnt cold, it was warm, the whole space was warm. though i could not see much around the dark room, i saw a figure slowly emerge, and it was a guy, i could tell by the way he stepped. i could only see his feet clearly as he slowly stepped under the light but before i could fully see who he was he stopped, halfway.
'Gin.'
i could feel the smile when he said my name, and responding naturally i smiled with him, but before anything could happened i woke up.
it was a wierd dream, but ill have to say i normally have wierd dreams when something interesting happened the day before. for instance, bumping into an attractive nice guy whom i somehow chatted for hours with, then being taken a room i never thought existed in the hotel to watch the stars and moon and ended up falling asleep with.
i turned my head to check if he was actually still there. and he was. sleeping so perfectly and beautifully. i smiled at his peacefulness. slowly lifting up the duvet and getting up. i headed over to the bathroom. slowly and quietly closing the door, i looked out the window beside the bathtub. the sky was a very light blue, the sun was just rising, it must have been around seven or eight in the morning. if it wasnt for my dream, i would have slept till 11 like i normally do. somehow angry at my dream but also grateful for it, i looked around for a toothbrush, toothpaste and towels. hunting them down was too easy. the maid stored them behind the mirror cabinet.
as i brushed my teeth i began thinking about how things turned so unexpectantly. yes. its not a big deal meeting a guy and the hanging out with him, but it is with me. guys i thought were attractive never really approached me but thinking back to the guys i used to like i am actually glad they didnt. chuckling a bit when images of all my past interests flash in my head, i started washing my face. i didnt even want to bother looking at myself in the mirror because i know once i do. ill probably freak out. brushing through my hair with my fingers i turned off the lights. holding my breath as i opened the door, i stopped halfway to check if i woke him up. nope. tip toeing my way back to our little camp area, i dug under the duvet and just laid there. but this time, i was watching the sun rise.
i must have fallen asleep again because i woke up to the sound of running water. alittle confused, i turned around to face where the noise was coming from and that was when i saw him walking out of the bathroom.
'did you clean up already?' he asked me slightly puzzled
'um....yea~' shrugging as i sat up
'haha okay~ i was able to think that someone else was sleeping in the same room as us' there he goes again, that adorable eye smile, it made me have to take in a sharp breath before i continued the conversation.
'i cant believe we fell asleep last night, i hope my cousin was too tired to drop by the room'
he sat now next to me and pulled the duvet over his legs and propped his body up with his arms. one hand a few centimetres away from me, 'well, you can tell her what happened yesterday, its not like we did anything' he chuckled. it was playful the sound. like a child laughing.
'oh! what time is it?'
'um around 11~'
'what?! oh no~ my cousin is probably waiting for me for breakfast!'
'oh~' he looked a bit disappointed, 'okay then, well pack up and then leave' standing up and holding out his hand. he was waiting to help me up. taking his hand he pulled me up. he had a lot of strength i tell you. though i knew he was being gentle you could still feel the pull against your arm.
as we folded the duvets then chucking them back into the cupboard, we heard some noise coming from the hallway. frozen for a few seconds to check whether it was true, 'Gin, we need to go now. the maids are coming.' throwing the pillows onto the bed he took my hand and pulled me towards the bathroom. shutting the door, he quickly moved into the bathtub and opened the window.
as i stood there watching him smoothly move around i could hear the maids unlock our room.
'come on, Gin~' he whispered, one leg outside the window and one leg still in the tub, sitting on the sill. keeping his body still inside the room he waited for me to come over.
when i got in the tub i could already hear the maid talking inside, gikwang helped me out and we both ducked sat on the balcony, ducking as on of the maids went into the bathroom and was thinking loudly why the window was open. she stuck her head out the window and looked left and right. trying not to make a noise we both glued ourselves to the wall away rom her sight. finally, shutting and locking the window, gikwang and i sighed in relief.
as we sat there i realised that there was no way back in. gikwang laughing when he saw my confused and worried expression.
'haha, dont worry Gin, i know a way back, but it may involve some hiking.' he said with a daring tone.
'i can hike.' i said confidently
'good. lets go then' standing back up again he gave me a hand then he jumped down a small flight of wooden stairs on my right which was attached to the side of the building and a tall wooden fence and onto the beach turning left and out of sight. i followed after him.
the sand was soft and clean. i took off my vans and held one shoe in each hand. the beach wasnt like those that you'd see in typical Mission Bay in New Zealand. it wasnt those dirty, dark, full of seaweed, other sealife or glass scattered all over. this beach had sand which shone, it glittered and gave off a sun-like warmth. it was very welcoming. before walking down the stairs i did not expect to see a whole stretch of beach. i would have thought it was just a little deck on the bottom and the water. gikwang and i walked slowly, taking our time, side by side with a few inches between us. we were silent. silence is good, it gives me time to enjoy the moment and think about what happened and what may happen. thank goodness it wasnt an awkward silence though.
beep~beep~
turning his head all of a sudden with the sound he looked at my pant pockets, 'phone?' he looked up at me
'huh?' i stopped and took out my other phone, like my broken phone this one was old as well, 'oh no~ its my cousin...'
-text- hey Gin~ i dropped by your room but it seemed like you were still asleep, you never responded when i knocked. hope you had a good time yesterday. sorry i had to leave you alone. im having breakfast right now i hope you can join me. meet you in a few minutes? -text-
'gikwang~ do you mind?'
'no~ its alright' he smiled widely showing his white teeth, 'come on now, lets go~' waving his hand to gesture me to follow, he fastened his pace and began jogging. i followed and then we ended up racing each other, even though i didnt know which way to go i just kept running, i was slightly infront of him, but i had a feeling he was letting me win because he zoomed pass me and stopped near a very narrow concrete steps all the way up to a small door.
i caught up to him in no time. both of us panting like crazy, trying to get back air. walking up the stairs was a bit difficult considering we used up our most of our energy sprinting plus we havent even eaten breakfast and above that i also realised i never ate dinner last night. gikwang reached the door first and opened it for me as i took my time trying to climb the stairs, i was quite close to falling onto the carpet of this hallway. as we walked through the familiar hallway i later realised that it was the bathroom hallway from the restaurant yesterday. starving and probably looking a bit like a hobo i decided to go to the bathroom first.
'ill wait for you out here' gikwang told me as i leaned onto the door to enter the females. the sprint was probably not a good idea, as i washed my face from sweat and tiredness i began to gain some energy from the adrenaline because of the exercise. nodding to myself after looking in the mirror for a few seconds i walked back out. as i stood at the frame of the door, gikwang was leaning backwards on the wall to my left. hands in pocket, one foot on the wall he was leaning on, and his head tilted back, eyes closed. to be honest he looked really cool, but i could tell he was recovering from the run. lifting his head to look at me he laughed, 'you alright?'
'i am now' i smiled back.
opening the door i walked out first, gikwang followed close behind. i saw my cousin sitting at the same table she sat at yesterday. on the way to her table i tried to think of a reasonable excuse, one that would explain this morning.
'hey~ im sorry i took so long~ i was in the bathroom, stomach ache. it always happens in the morning' i put on a what-can-you-do face as i pulled out the chair and sat down. but it was kind of the truth. i get stomach aches in the morning very often, something to do with my digestive issues or something like that.
'oh~ you were here before me? nor wonder you didnt answer your door, haha, anyways youre coming with me today right?' it sounded like i had an option. i considered the option, to go with my cousin like what was planned in the first place, or, stay at the hotel and hope for another chance to meet up with gikwang. rethinking about the latter option, i realised it sounded very naive and relatively wierd so i decided to just go with my cousin.
'excuse me, here is your chicken salad, and bacon and eggs.'
looking up i saw that handsome chef again, what was his name? ah~ doojoon. he was smiling happily but i felt as though he was a bit stiff. there was something off about him. i always had a sixth sense about things, watching the way people move, behave, talk and their facial expressions i could round-a-bout tell what kind of person they are and other things. and i have a feeling that he may be interested in my cousin. since i was in a good mood, i wanted to dig deeper a bit, so i did what a third wheeler, well more like by-stander would do. i wanted to make things happen.
'hi, sorry. im Gin' i smiled politely, 'i was wondering, how long have you owned this restaurant?'
'oh, um...' he stratched his head in responsed to my sudden question, 'around two to three years'
'wow~ hey, zea~ isnt that the same amount of time that youve had your own design label?' i asked my cousin.
'yes it is~' my cousin nodding, looking at me puzzled
'hmm...you both are such successful young adults' i nodded a bit too dramatically glancing at my cousin and doojoon. i was trying to make a link between them
'ah~ haha thank you, Miss Gin~' doojoon laughed, bowing and then giving my cousin glance before he turned back towards his kitchen.
lifting an eyebrow my cousin questioned, 'and when did you start calling me by my name Gin?'
shrugging it off i just replied, 'he looks cute~'
trying to avoid the glare from zea, i began feasting. bacon and eggs never tasted this good before.
'Gin.'
i could feel the smile when he said my name, and responding naturally i smiled with him, but before anything could happened i woke up.
it was a wierd dream, but ill have to say i normally have wierd dreams when something interesting happened the day before. for instance, bumping into an attractive nice guy whom i somehow chatted for hours with, then being taken a room i never thought existed in the hotel to watch the stars and moon and ended up falling asleep with.
i turned my head to check if he was actually still there. and he was. sleeping so perfectly and beautifully. i smiled at his peacefulness. slowly lifting up the duvet and getting up. i headed over to the bathroom. slowly and quietly closing the door, i looked out the window beside the bathtub. the sky was a very light blue, the sun was just rising, it must have been around seven or eight in the morning. if it wasnt for my dream, i would have slept till 11 like i normally do. somehow angry at my dream but also grateful for it, i looked around for a toothbrush, toothpaste and towels. hunting them down was too easy. the maid stored them behind the mirror cabinet.
as i brushed my teeth i began thinking about how things turned so unexpectantly. yes. its not a big deal meeting a guy and the hanging out with him, but it is with me. guys i thought were attractive never really approached me but thinking back to the guys i used to like i am actually glad they didnt. chuckling a bit when images of all my past interests flash in my head, i started washing my face. i didnt even want to bother looking at myself in the mirror because i know once i do. ill probably freak out. brushing through my hair with my fingers i turned off the lights. holding my breath as i opened the door, i stopped halfway to check if i woke him up. nope. tip toeing my way back to our little camp area, i dug under the duvet and just laid there. but this time, i was watching the sun rise.
i must have fallen asleep again because i woke up to the sound of running water. alittle confused, i turned around to face where the noise was coming from and that was when i saw him walking out of the bathroom.
'did you clean up already?' he asked me slightly puzzled
'um....yea~' shrugging as i sat up
'haha okay~ i was able to think that someone else was sleeping in the same room as us' there he goes again, that adorable eye smile, it made me have to take in a sharp breath before i continued the conversation.
'i cant believe we fell asleep last night, i hope my cousin was too tired to drop by the room'
he sat now next to me and pulled the duvet over his legs and propped his body up with his arms. one hand a few centimetres away from me, 'well, you can tell her what happened yesterday, its not like we did anything' he chuckled. it was playful the sound. like a child laughing.
'oh! what time is it?'
'um around 11~'
'what?! oh no~ my cousin is probably waiting for me for breakfast!'
'oh~' he looked a bit disappointed, 'okay then, well pack up and then leave' standing up and holding out his hand. he was waiting to help me up. taking his hand he pulled me up. he had a lot of strength i tell you. though i knew he was being gentle you could still feel the pull against your arm.
as we folded the duvets then chucking them back into the cupboard, we heard some noise coming from the hallway. frozen for a few seconds to check whether it was true, 'Gin, we need to go now. the maids are coming.' throwing the pillows onto the bed he took my hand and pulled me towards the bathroom. shutting the door, he quickly moved into the bathtub and opened the window.
as i stood there watching him smoothly move around i could hear the maids unlock our room.
'come on, Gin~' he whispered, one leg outside the window and one leg still in the tub, sitting on the sill. keeping his body still inside the room he waited for me to come over.
when i got in the tub i could already hear the maid talking inside, gikwang helped me out and we both ducked sat on the balcony, ducking as on of the maids went into the bathroom and was thinking loudly why the window was open. she stuck her head out the window and looked left and right. trying not to make a noise we both glued ourselves to the wall away rom her sight. finally, shutting and locking the window, gikwang and i sighed in relief.
as we sat there i realised that there was no way back in. gikwang laughing when he saw my confused and worried expression.
'haha, dont worry Gin, i know a way back, but it may involve some hiking.' he said with a daring tone.
'i can hike.' i said confidently
'good. lets go then' standing back up again he gave me a hand then he jumped down a small flight of wooden stairs on my right which was attached to the side of the building and a tall wooden fence and onto the beach turning left and out of sight. i followed after him.
the sand was soft and clean. i took off my vans and held one shoe in each hand. the beach wasnt like those that you'd see in typical Mission Bay in New Zealand. it wasnt those dirty, dark, full of seaweed, other sealife or glass scattered all over. this beach had sand which shone, it glittered and gave off a sun-like warmth. it was very welcoming. before walking down the stairs i did not expect to see a whole stretch of beach. i would have thought it was just a little deck on the bottom and the water. gikwang and i walked slowly, taking our time, side by side with a few inches between us. we were silent. silence is good, it gives me time to enjoy the moment and think about what happened and what may happen. thank goodness it wasnt an awkward silence though.
beep~beep~
turning his head all of a sudden with the sound he looked at my pant pockets, 'phone?' he looked up at me
'huh?' i stopped and took out my other phone, like my broken phone this one was old as well, 'oh no~ its my cousin...'
-text- hey Gin~ i dropped by your room but it seemed like you were still asleep, you never responded when i knocked. hope you had a good time yesterday. sorry i had to leave you alone. im having breakfast right now i hope you can join me. meet you in a few minutes? -text-
'gikwang~ do you mind?'
'no~ its alright' he smiled widely showing his white teeth, 'come on now, lets go~' waving his hand to gesture me to follow, he fastened his pace and began jogging. i followed and then we ended up racing each other, even though i didnt know which way to go i just kept running, i was slightly infront of him, but i had a feeling he was letting me win because he zoomed pass me and stopped near a very narrow concrete steps all the way up to a small door.
i caught up to him in no time. both of us panting like crazy, trying to get back air. walking up the stairs was a bit difficult considering we used up our most of our energy sprinting plus we havent even eaten breakfast and above that i also realised i never ate dinner last night. gikwang reached the door first and opened it for me as i took my time trying to climb the stairs, i was quite close to falling onto the carpet of this hallway. as we walked through the familiar hallway i later realised that it was the bathroom hallway from the restaurant yesterday. starving and probably looking a bit like a hobo i decided to go to the bathroom first.
'ill wait for you out here' gikwang told me as i leaned onto the door to enter the females. the sprint was probably not a good idea, as i washed my face from sweat and tiredness i began to gain some energy from the adrenaline because of the exercise. nodding to myself after looking in the mirror for a few seconds i walked back out. as i stood at the frame of the door, gikwang was leaning backwards on the wall to my left. hands in pocket, one foot on the wall he was leaning on, and his head tilted back, eyes closed. to be honest he looked really cool, but i could tell he was recovering from the run. lifting his head to look at me he laughed, 'you alright?'
'i am now' i smiled back.
opening the door i walked out first, gikwang followed close behind. i saw my cousin sitting at the same table she sat at yesterday. on the way to her table i tried to think of a reasonable excuse, one that would explain this morning.
'hey~ im sorry i took so long~ i was in the bathroom, stomach ache. it always happens in the morning' i put on a what-can-you-do face as i pulled out the chair and sat down. but it was kind of the truth. i get stomach aches in the morning very often, something to do with my digestive issues or something like that.
'oh~ you were here before me? nor wonder you didnt answer your door, haha, anyways youre coming with me today right?' it sounded like i had an option. i considered the option, to go with my cousin like what was planned in the first place, or, stay at the hotel and hope for another chance to meet up with gikwang. rethinking about the latter option, i realised it sounded very naive and relatively wierd so i decided to just go with my cousin.
'excuse me, here is your chicken salad, and bacon and eggs.'
looking up i saw that handsome chef again, what was his name? ah~ doojoon. he was smiling happily but i felt as though he was a bit stiff. there was something off about him. i always had a sixth sense about things, watching the way people move, behave, talk and their facial expressions i could round-a-bout tell what kind of person they are and other things. and i have a feeling that he may be interested in my cousin. since i was in a good mood, i wanted to dig deeper a bit, so i did what a third wheeler, well more like by-stander would do. i wanted to make things happen.
'hi, sorry. im Gin' i smiled politely, 'i was wondering, how long have you owned this restaurant?'
'oh, um...' he stratched his head in responsed to my sudden question, 'around two to three years'
'wow~ hey, zea~ isnt that the same amount of time that youve had your own design label?' i asked my cousin.
'yes it is~' my cousin nodding, looking at me puzzled
'hmm...you both are such successful young adults' i nodded a bit too dramatically glancing at my cousin and doojoon. i was trying to make a link between them
'ah~ haha thank you, Miss Gin~' doojoon laughed, bowing and then giving my cousin glance before he turned back towards his kitchen.
lifting an eyebrow my cousin questioned, 'and when did you start calling me by my name Gin?'
shrugging it off i just replied, 'he looks cute~'
trying to avoid the glare from zea, i began feasting. bacon and eggs never tasted this good before.
Thursday, December 30, 2010
NIGHT [part 3]
as we waited in the elevator, i further observed him head to toe. he was standing slightly infront of me to my right. listing all his features in my head as i scanned passed. he had nice brown hair with a few little curls. a simple fringe. a perfect nose and a muscular body, obviously, but there were so many others things that was so great about him. his neck, his collarbone, his chest hidding behind that thin shirt of his. his posture was so comfortable with his hips leaning on the side bar, right hand lightly holding the rail and the other in his pocket. standing up straight when we arrived to the level and holding the door open for me, he smiled and directed me out. walking passed him i noticed that he was slightly shorter than me. the starnge thing about it is that, i always said how i dont like guys who are shorter than me, that its just wierd if i like them because people can notice the difference, so i always avoided shorter guys. but the thing is, with him, i dont care, i dont care at all. it never even crossed my mind that i would stop liking him because of this. i like him. its been a while since ive thought this, 'like'.
i never noticed that i walked into a pitch black hallway, you could only see the moonlight shining through the glass window at the end of this very long and slightly scary hallway. the light behind me from the elevator was the only thing between comfort and discomfort. as soon as gikwang walked out and let the doors close i was stiff. all the doors to the hotel room on this floor was closed, where is he taking me? i felt something warm on my arm then it slid down to my hands tugging me forward. i heard him say, 'come on~ its okay~ we're nearly there~' i couldnt help but to hold onto his arm, hugging it loosely we walked through the darkness towards the illuminated glass wall before we reached it, gikwang turned us to a door on the right, room S2. taking out a card from his back pocket he slid it through the lock and miraculously the door clicked opened. i wondered where he got the card, why he had the card and are we even allowed here?
walking in first he checked around the room and then looked back at me as i stood a little bit cautious at the entrance. the lights in the room was not turned on, but because of the moonlight shining in through the large and wide glass extension on the room, i could see a shadowed smile on his face. welcoming and warming. chuckling he came over and pulled me into the centre of the room and closed the door. i was facing a large panelled extension, you could see the where the carpet of the room was separated from the wood with a thin metal brace. walking under the magical light i looked up to see the stars. they decorated the night sky, sparkling and wonderful. i realised i was standing in the spot for a while because gikwang had already taken out the duvets and pillows from the cupboard and laid them on the floor under the moon and stars. dropping down on his bum he gestured me to sit down next to him.
after a few minutes of complimenting the room and the view we both ended up lieing down under another duvet and watching the sky. "this room is for special guests. VIPs, celebrities, higher status businessmen, but dont worry, i dont think any of these room are occupied at the moment~" he informed me. no wonder the bed, sofa and couch was covered. protection of furniture and prevention of dust accumulation. as i nodded i continued to admire the moon and confessing to him, "you know? for the graduation book from my old school, there was this question which asked me, 'if you werent human, what would you be?' the first thing that popped into my head was the moon." turning his head to face me he asked why. 'i dunno, unlike the sun, the moon cannot hurt peoples eyes, but like the sun, the moon can shine light to guide and help~ the light it gives out is so magical, you feel it on your skin, but it doesnt burn, it calms.' turning back to further observe the moon, i saw his head slowly nod to agree.
it felt like hours that we were lying there...hours blurred into a haze and i found myself in a dream, fast asleep.
i never noticed that i walked into a pitch black hallway, you could only see the moonlight shining through the glass window at the end of this very long and slightly scary hallway. the light behind me from the elevator was the only thing between comfort and discomfort. as soon as gikwang walked out and let the doors close i was stiff. all the doors to the hotel room on this floor was closed, where is he taking me? i felt something warm on my arm then it slid down to my hands tugging me forward. i heard him say, 'come on~ its okay~ we're nearly there~' i couldnt help but to hold onto his arm, hugging it loosely we walked through the darkness towards the illuminated glass wall before we reached it, gikwang turned us to a door on the right, room S2. taking out a card from his back pocket he slid it through the lock and miraculously the door clicked opened. i wondered where he got the card, why he had the card and are we even allowed here?
walking in first he checked around the room and then looked back at me as i stood a little bit cautious at the entrance. the lights in the room was not turned on, but because of the moonlight shining in through the large and wide glass extension on the room, i could see a shadowed smile on his face. welcoming and warming. chuckling he came over and pulled me into the centre of the room and closed the door. i was facing a large panelled extension, you could see the where the carpet of the room was separated from the wood with a thin metal brace. walking under the magical light i looked up to see the stars. they decorated the night sky, sparkling and wonderful. i realised i was standing in the spot for a while because gikwang had already taken out the duvets and pillows from the cupboard and laid them on the floor under the moon and stars. dropping down on his bum he gestured me to sit down next to him.
after a few minutes of complimenting the room and the view we both ended up lieing down under another duvet and watching the sky. "this room is for special guests. VIPs, celebrities, higher status businessmen, but dont worry, i dont think any of these room are occupied at the moment~" he informed me. no wonder the bed, sofa and couch was covered. protection of furniture and prevention of dust accumulation. as i nodded i continued to admire the moon and confessing to him, "you know? for the graduation book from my old school, there was this question which asked me, 'if you werent human, what would you be?' the first thing that popped into my head was the moon." turning his head to face me he asked why. 'i dunno, unlike the sun, the moon cannot hurt peoples eyes, but like the sun, the moon can shine light to guide and help~ the light it gives out is so magical, you feel it on your skin, but it doesnt burn, it calms.' turning back to further observe the moon, i saw his head slowly nod to agree.
it felt like hours that we were lying there...hours blurred into a haze and i found myself in a dream, fast asleep.
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